I vividly remember that golden time of 2011. I had a great
bunch of friends back, though the best ones forever used to be together with
me, discussing every bit of our lives and every type of topic concerned to our
future, past, routine and etc-etc. My lot of best pals always spent school-time
together specially break-time, because we often had to sit poles apart in class
according to Sir Amjad’s (principal) opinion that if we sit together we would
talk a lot though those moments for us were really considered significant to
talk than to study. Juvenile us!
In those times I was newly interacting with Sir Farooque (math teacher) while attending extra English classes at Alpha Institute. I was literally impressed by his horse-sense, so I told him about my decision and he thought for long of about 6-7 seconds and then he smiled and said ‘Good idea’. Subsequently, he then started to make me aware of the studies I was supposed to do for levels. In the meantime, I seldom discussed it with father and he used to take it so light that one day he exclaimed ‘YES’ to it. I flew up to the sky when I heard Baba letting me do it in future, (Wow! That feeling)
Time was passing on and my zenith-hopes were getting stronger from strong. I used to give damn certain looks about my plan; I almost uttered this decision to roughly every person in my circle.
But when time came my Baba talked me into not doing the levels?!
I was ruined deep inside. I was irrational and tensed. Baba had some reasonable reasons that I understood soon after. Because it was an order from the ‘Chief Justice’ of my home, I couldn’t do or say anything further.
However, if someone’s questions can even make me realize some positive thing in me? I would be thankful to that person. During the period in-between, Sir Farooque always used to ask me; ‘Will you be able to give 4 hours of study to math only? And some more hours to others subjects?’ Fairly, I think he wanted me get geared up mentally for it. His questions always made me fear from doing it. That proves my wills were not strong enough neither my protest to do it in anyway. We used to discuss it a lot and he always helped me get inspiration from several students of O & A levels but possibly something somewhere in me wanted to give me some bang in order to boast up my will power. And probably that was the best thing I learned from that time. That no matter what you are doing or how much hard the situation gets you always have to give your 200% of willpower, hard work and if you can’t do it, I pray for you to get the same bang of knowing ‘how to get your desires done’.
Afterthought, I’d thank both good men Baba and Sir Farooque for creating such situations which were certainly hard on me but still somehow that made me realize.
Neither Weengus, nor I did levels.
